This pretty much explains how I'm feeling right now. I'm so thankful that I still have a space where I can pour out my thoughts and feelings without having to watch my words in case I'm offending someone or talking about sensitive issues.

My room got a new arrangement today but I guess I didn't set aside time to rearrange my head. I find it so typical of me to throw myself into things/ keep myself busy so that I don't think about you that much.

I think that's why I'm dreading bedtime so much right now. It's the time of the day where I've no TV shows to distract me from the fact that I miss you like crazy.

I guess I rearranged my bed so that it won't feel like something is missing when I lay down staring at the ceiling trying to lull myself to sleep. And I know I haven't blogged for almost a year and honestly, I've been avoiding blogging because when I finally sit down and do so, I always end up digging out emotions that I've kept ignoring or hiding.

You've only gone back in for a day and whenever I stop focusing on whatever I'm doing and just sit and let thoughts run through my head, I find it hard not to think about you and wish you'd annoy me with your texts and be lying here beside me right now.

I know I was getting antsy the past few days and believe me that you're wrong when you concluded that I was sick of seeing you everyday. Instead, I was angry that you'd to go back in.

Right now, I'm just keeping my head up and looking forward to wednesday when I get to see you again before you go back in for 6 more weeks.

This is starting to feel like an american solider's wife's blog but at least my heart isn't that heavy as I type this post as I know you're fighting a winning battle and no lives are at stake. I love you baby, always will.